Poor children and my ex-wife

It is somehow sad seeing these flyers. In the cult of Scientology there are many people with good intentions doing bad things. Such flyers affect me a lot.
These children are innocent and happy. They cannot understand, what is happening to them. Their parents are the centre of truth. All they believe in and all they trust in is coming from their parents.

And someday these same children become money hungry beasts and will never realise that their blood/money is being sucked out of them in the same way they are sucking on the life energy of others. Victims become perpetrators.
Children with full potential to succeed in life are trapped before they even learn to perceive any trap. And it is their own parents ruining their Way To Happiness. Today, these children are cute and at the same time I know that tomorrow they will attack others.

Thinking a little bit into the future and I am so saddened.

I am here. I am still fighting. Others are still fighting. For many we come too late. Once innocent people commit moral crimes in the name of the good/cult, they have chosen the side and blocked their own way out. From now on the subconsciousness will prevent these people from thinking objectively. Justifications will automatically kick in.If you want mind slaves – THIS is how it is done! Make them do something really bad. It doesn’t have to be for the cult. It better be really bad for themselves.

Mike Rinder recently mentioned it and I mention it again. Scientology heats up its members like frogs – very slowly. Frogs don’t jump even when they can. And these innocent children sit in the water. You know they only have a very little chance. And this chance is not coming from their parents.

Sad, isn’t it?

I watched some old family videos and pictures today. I and my ex-wife had good times as well and I still don’t understand, how you can brainwash anybody to a point, where victims destroy their family, the lives of others and also their own lives. How can a healthy brain malfunction that much?

But I do understand that people, who have committed crimes in the name of the good, are not able to leave easily. This would make them more wrong than anything else. Sinking with the ship is obviously a better choice. This is the final step in becoming a fanatic.

Why is this scenario hardly discussed? No Tony Ortega, no John Sweeny or Bryan Seymour have reported about this last step.
Here we have the hardcore Scientologists. These are the ones, who never leave and you will not hear from them unless they suffered directly under David Miscavige

Please come forward! We need your voice! Did you commit treason against your family? Did you disconnect and destroy your children’s welfare and childhood? Did you finally leave Scientology and don’t dare to contact your family? Too big overt?
You most likely will not come clean with your family. Treason is a big fat moral crime. But you might come clean with yourself by speaking out. And maybe someone will forgive you someday.

This is exactly what I am struggling with. How could I ever forgive my ex-wife? She attacked me, tried to take my children away, emptied my pockets, ruined my job and the worst of all: “At no point did she inform herself honestly.”
On the other side I am inclined to forgive. She has been one of these children I am talking about.

I still haven’t answered that question to myself. Will I ever get to that point?



The Telegraph: Small man syndrome at the top of Scientology?

Sorry, I am terribly busy since nearly a year now. My career is doing very well and money is flowing in faster than ever. And all this with Wog technology. My posting activity is obviously suffering.

Today, I found a really nice article in the “The Telegraph”. I studied Tom Cruise’s childhood and I also know David Miscavige’s past very well. Both are pretty small ((rather small than pretty)) and had/have violent periods.

Read these LULS! Mabe we have to redefine “clear” as in “make someone/something clear forcefully”.


Last year at study by Oxford University concluded that feeling smaller makes people feel paranoid, mistrustful and more likely to think that people are staring or talking about them.

Evidence: Scientology says: Nicole Kidman is a High Crime

Nicole Kidman’s father Antony was a clinical psychologist – so what?
You don’t know the history of Psychiatry, I do. Who said that? Oh, wasn’t that Tom Cruise. The puzzle slowly makes sense. David Miscavige, the insane leader of the Scientology cult, was strictly against Tom’s marriage. It contradicted the cult policies. He had to get rid of Nicole. David Miscavige used Marty Rathbun and others to indoctrinate Tom to make it happen.

Merriam-Webster defines HIGH CRIME


1:  a crime of an infamous nature contrary to public morality but not technically constituting a felony; specifically :  an offense which the U.S. Senate deems to constitute adequate grounds for removal of the president, vice-president, or any civil officer as a person unfit to hold public office and deserving of impeachment
2:  a crime of a serious or aggravated nature

And now compare this with the following cult policy:


And it is not just about psychs. See, who is also on the list:

This third category would include people who are members or ex-members, or in families of members or ex-members of media, police spy organizations and government spy organizations such as the National Security Agency (NSA), Central Intelligence Agency (CIA), Internal Revenue Service (IRS), Department of Justice (DOJ), Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI), or any other federal agency in any country. It definitely includes anyone who has ever gone to or threatened to go to the press or who has tried to sue Scientology.

I had to read this list roughly 5 times to really grasp what the guy was saying. This is pretty much everybody who is not a Scientologist, not just 2.5% percent. HBO is clear. IRS is clear. But this one: “DEPARTMENT OF JuSTICE”? WTF!
Do you get what Hubbard was saying?

And what is a spy organization? Isn’t OSA (office of special affairs, aka the new Gardians Office) a spy organization?

Feel free to sue me for putting this document online. I’d love to have the Streisand effect.

And on a side note:
Dear cult,
If you do not accept insane people, then you cannot claim to have cured any of them.
You also cannot attack psychs (“Not a single cure”) for not being successful, because they accept people that you deny.
And the funny part of this is that you are not successful despite that fact.

Wins from leaving Scientology


Some of my blog readers know the devastating details of the previous two years. I am very sorry for not revealing all details. Most of them are far more disturbing than what you have read so far. It is not just about telling the full truth, but also about remaining safe in such an insane scenario.
When I google for my real name the word “Scientology” is suggested while I am still typing. ‘Guilt by association’ will most likely haunt me for the rest of my life. Even though it is highly upsetting I do understand why others apply this general rule. Surely I would like to see a clear differentiation between Scientology warriors and Scientology protesters.

Besides my losses I would like to tell you about my wins of leaving the cult. It was by far the better option even though it included losing my job, being harassed and being the subject of colorful litigation.

The most important win has to do with my children. I was fighting for them in court and paid a fortune to the most expensive lawyers. Sometimes you have to lose something or someone to understand the true and full value. In hindsight the cult’s Fair Game tactics have improved my relationship. We are spending time together like never before. All my money that was spent in the cult now flows into their direction. That is an awful lot of money. Music, art, posh holidays, big parties, education and many other things.
I was stingy – I always had the unaffordable OT goal for the entire family in mind. But now I spend money at such a speed that it may look like pure waste. Still, I earn three times more than I can spend for my lavish life.

On top of that I got a big salary rise some weeks ago. This came entirely unexpected. In the end I can call myself a lucky devil for having lost my last job. Who had thought that the Fair Game would end like this? Definitely not me! This period of harassment has been the worst time of my life.

You can see that my blogging activity is not as regular as it should be. The reason is that the targets and demands at work are really high. This makes my job very safe. I do have other blogs as well. They are not anonymous. I realized that success is all about PR. So I keep the blogs running. But how can I solve the time issue? Well, I hired someone else to do it.

I regularly read stories on the internet. Who is not following Tony Ortega’s or Mike Rinder’s page? The downfall of the cult keeps me happy each and every day. It gives me inner satisfaction.

Five years ago I was carrying this strange feeling of injustice inside me. The cult rules were causing me discomfort. I could never be sure if something entirely normal would suddenly become an ‘overt’ (a suppressive act). I knew that reasoning was definitely not the same inside Scientology. Every little thing that would disadvantage the 3rd dynamic would have to be paid with intensives or courses somehow. Let me give the baby a name. It is called “fear”.

I can now think freely and discuss my opinions. Well, there are still some rules, but I don’t mind these. Nobody can get in trouble for my thoughts. Nobody writes any knowledge report. I can trust people around me. They are the most ethical beings of the universe compared to Scientologists.

Since months I do have real friends. I know that these friends will not leave me just because someone else is ordering it. They help me and listen to my problems without writing down an ethics battle plan, knowledge report or repair list. Their help is for free – yes it is!

I got rid of forced communication. I can pick up my phone and talk to lovely people. They don’t call me five times to ask me the same questions over and over again. They do listen to my decisions and they don’t tell me about “secrets”, which I can only hear about on events. In fact there has been no event, no IAS and no regging since I left for good.

Sex has gotten 10x better. My ex was always asking for a touch assist. How sexy! Was this the top of imaginations? Scientology was no fun! Scientology ethics corrects everything. Then you have to feel bad like a pervert. A case supervisor quickly adds some arbitrary intensives. What for? For further revelations to untrustworthy people? The cult is so perverted that you have to pay money to tell them stories they will most likely use against you.

There is only one type of ethics left. And that is my personal ethics. What I consider being correct is correct according to my consideration. I don’t have to justify any purpose, intention or wording.

I can buy newspapers that I want to read. Nobody tells me that this is not ethical. I surf on the internet and I google for David Miscavige’s withholds. This is my right to inform myself honestly. Nobody tries to stop me.

I am a free

Scientology’s insane “High Crime” definitions



This is hard to confront. Not for the wogs (non-Scientologists), but for dedicated Scientologists.

You could ask any Scientologist to explain their High Crime rules. In case you would really get any answer, you surely only hear justifications where the answers must comply with the facts. Don’t expect anyone to think freely.
Simply understand that admitting evil would imply admitting to be wrong … which is highly contra-survival.

You’d better admit correctness than ruining your future. Truth does end the past. You cannot spiritually advance by sticking to falsehood for the sake of being right.

If you are a Scientologist. Stop reading now.
You won’t be able to confront Hubbard’s words as they are. Look, don’t listen!


Let’s start with some citations today:


Blackmail of Scientologists or Scientology organizations threatened or accomplished-in which case the crime being used for blackmail purposes becomes fully outside the reach of Ethics and is absolved by the fact of blackmail unless repeated.

“of a Scientologist or Scientology”
Do you realise that it does not say blackmailing anyone is bad? Have you read the blackmailing stories against members and wogs?

Organizing a splinter group to use Scientology data or any part of it to distract people from standard Scientology.

This one is interesting. The cult alters technology on a daily basis. The freezone accuses the cult of doing so. At the same time the freezone commits high crimes according to Hubbard.

Demanding the return of any or all donations made for standard training or processing actually received or received in part and still available but undelivered only because of departure of the person demanding (the donations must be refunded but this policy applies).

Meaning, they will never repay anything no matter what other policies are telling.

Continued adherence to a person or group pronounced a suppressive person or group by HCO.

If you fall from grace and the cult declares you SP, your family has to disconnect. And all your false Scientologist friends will also disconnect from you.

Failure to handle or disavow and disconnect from a person demonstrably guilty of suppressive acts.

Phew, this makes it even more clear.

Seeking to splinter off an area of Scientology and deny it properly constituted authority far personal profit, personal power or “to save the organization from the higher officers of Scientology. “

Higher officers are always right. You are wrong. And the Sea Org does not officially exist, the same way that David Miscavige is not involved in anything.

Severe breach of ecclesiastical and/or fiduciary duty as an executive or corporate official of any Scientology or Dianetics organization which has resulted in severe harm, loss or disrepute for Scientology or the organization.

You mean David Miscavige’s beatings are not ok?

8. Boasting as to speed of delivery in a session, such as “I put in Grade 0 in three minutes. ” Etc.

We all know this from various presentations: Flag is faster.

Informing fellow staff members and others that one is leaving staff. Where a person is secretly planning to leave and making private preparations to do so without informing the proper terminals in an organization and does leave (blow) and does not return within a reasonable length of time, an automatic declare is to be issued. Should any monies or organizational property be found to be missing in consequence, action is to be taken on criminal charges.

Deep in your heart, don’t you think this is crazy?

Spreading false tales to invalidate Clears or spreading libelous and slanderous statements about the alleged behavior of Clears.

Nice defence. First of all David Miscavige degraded Clears multiple times. Besides this many Clears cannot show that they are clear, because there is no such as a state of Clear. I have not met a single one, just a lot of weird people. Not a single promise in Dianetics was dealt with. Super recollection, no glasses needed, emotional stability etc.

It is a high crime to publicly depart Scientology.

You mean like a football star leaving his club?

1. A person may be summoned to a Court of Ethics or Executive Court of Ethics if it be found that he has gone past a word he does not understand when receiving, hearing or reading an order, HCOB, policy letter or tape, any and all LRH written or printed materials including books, PABs, despatches, telexes and mimeo issues which resulted in a failure to do duties of his post, without his at once making an effective effort to clear the words on himself, whether he knew he was missing them or not, as the source of his inaction or damaging actions.

Very interesting, but what if it cannot be understood, because there were so-called SPs altering the policies and bulletins. David Miscavige, how to solve this one? You pretended to know since years that the scriptures were suppressive.

The charge is neglecting to clarify words not understood.

OMG! Go to jail?

4. An auditor failing to clear each and every word of every command or list used may be summoned before a Court of Ethics.

Oh, yes. The poor guy, who spent all his time and money. This guy had good intentions. And now – within seconds – he commits a “HIGH CRIME”. Not just a mistake – it is a crime!

Any executive issuing an order that certain HCO Pls or HCOBs are not to be followed, where this is proven beyond reasonable doubt, shall be considered as having committed a high crime, and this can carry the assignment of the condition of Treason for both the person issuing the order and the person who receives and executes it.

This, KSW1 and the Fair Game doctrine are a dangerous mixture. Use it against Scientologists in court. You cannot lose the case!

Any auditor seeing a rock slam on a preclear and failing to mark it down and report it is guilty of a high crime, as this injures society, the organization and the person himself.

Unless it was a Mark V e-meter or Hubbard holding the cans. Who does not know the story of poor Otto Roos?

If red tags, per the Examiner’s 24-hour rule, continue unhandled by Tech or Qual, the matter becomes a high crime.

This is a pretty cool way to charge you more, even though you ran out of money. I know red tags very well. I had lots of them. They frequently came when I had money on my account, but the auditing action is not long enough.

1. Abbreviating an official course in standard Scientology administrative policy so as to lose the full theory, administrative procedures and effectiveness of the subject.

Well, what has happened to the Student Hat course? Nothing is in its original form. Still no cognitive dissonance?

Forcing auditing on a pc when he is refusing or protesting it, rather than finding out why the pc doesn’t want the auditing and straightening it out is using auditing suppressively. Any C/S or auditor guilty of this must be handled with group justice proceedings which would include a Comm Ev and could include a penalty of being declared suppressive and expelled from the Church.

This contradicts the “red tag” theory. Eh? You always lose.


To be continued ….

Scientology Leader’s 8+2 dynamics … survive !



Ok, this is not a spider web even though it would be a good metaphor. What you see are David Miscavige’s 10 dynamics. I originally planned the picture as a planetary system where everything revolves around our dear leader.

Whatever approach would have been the best, all have one point in common. In the centre of the universe we have DM himself. His life consist of 8+2 dynamics.


First dynamic

This can only be the sun, nothing else would fulfill our expectations of greatness. And no, this is not DM’s halo. There is no halo that could shine bright enough.


Second dynamic

His family? No way! They have all abandoned DM. The only 2D cool aid drinker, in case she is not in “the hole” yet, is DM’s Communicator Laurisse Henley-Smith (formerly Stuckenbrock). She is his second dynamic, replacing Shelly, who somehow locked herself up very well.

This is not a sex dynamic. It is creativity to get along with life, which is surrounded by SPs.

Come on, from what I know about DM, I guess he is impotent. Even according to Hubbard’s standards he must be impotent. Sex is disgusting. And I tell you what: IT IS GOOD AS IT IS. Imagine there would be a kind of second Mini-Me following his footsteps. We have seen really bad constellations in North Korea. Thank God!


Third dynamic

This should be the entirety of Scientologists, which is not the case. DM’s third dynamic is a kind of cash dynamic. The IAS cannot be very far.

Oh, and we can also find the Sea Org Members here. The penguins are very crowded. There is plenty of space in each Ideal Org. Nevertheless, they have to share beds. Food is also an issue. Sea Org members are cheaper than slaves. They work harder than slaves. They are the most frugal slaves of the entire universe. This ‘unprecedented’ value makes them perfect beings. Did you know the IAS slogan: “We are the IAS”

Someone has to be it. According to LRH, the word “we” is suppressive anyway. It is a terrible generalisation, because the truth is that “we” only stands for one person and that is David Miscavige.


Fourth dynamic

Mankind, although there is nothing “kind” here. These are all important people on earth that are not aberrated (=insane) and have good statistics. They are the homo novis. A world without insanity actually means to be like Scientology’s celebrities. Someone, who can lie like Kirstie Alley or jump like Tom Cruise.

Imagine, we would all be like these celebrities. I am wondering, who would produce telephones, cars, software, newspapers, trains and all the other things in this perfect world? If we were all actors or musicians then there wouldn’t even be a camera man.


Fifth dynamic

This is the animal dynamic. We find some really dedicated sheeple here. How many? Dunno, not many are left. They were cuddled too much and died during the harsh winters, because they had no fur.

These sheeple are very special. They are not only providing exceptionally amounts of wool, they also provide milk, and some of them can be used as ‘raw meat’.

Btw. The sheep on the left is PTS.

Did you spot the whale? I had to add at least one. You would expect that they occupy 3 or 4 dynamics simultaneously. Their value is much higher as the value of classical members with their miraculously depleted bank accounts. Abilities and achievements are all measured in money units. In an event you are only allowed to sit in the front after donating more than any other person. It does not matter if you have audited for 10,000 hours, sold 5,000 books or disseminated to 500 new sheeple, who did actually show up.

However, when the time has come, even big whales are kicked out overnight (disposed quietly without sorrow) no matter how much they have contributed.

What would DM do without the whales? Maybe some less ebony in his designer loo?

Staff are quite stressing for David Miscavige. They are more likely to be exposed to entheta. Therefore their value is way lower than the one of Sea Org members. You need 10 people on staff for one Sea Org member, who hardly sleep and don’t ask so many question.
Try to spot some employees on my picture. It is the absence that counts. You could argue that they are represented by the black sheep on the left, which is PTS.


Sixth dynamic

MEST – these are basically buildings. They are like mushrooms popping out of the soil. Most of them are imaginary, because reopening a building isn’t really the same as opening a building. But for DM this is justifiable. These are monuments of his power. They prove the growth and mighty OT abilities that are inherent in his holy beingness. He doesn’t even need auditing or sec-checks.

And now find Mother Earth. She is freaking big, isn’t she? Somewhere in the corner of this picture to properly express her importance. Her shape is a little bit eggy. This is how DM perceives the planet he is standing on. As the pope of the fastest growing religion worldwide he is the only one to understand the symbiosis between Mother Earth and Scientology. There is this one important reason why we have to save our world – we must save his buildings. Who cares about mankind and thetans? Buildings are the highest imaginable urge towards survival.


Seventh dynamic

OT IX and OT X. Well, Miscavige knows that they do not exist. This is more or less a mandatory dynamic. Without seeking for survival on this dynamic his sheeple would run away. Therefore, even though this dynamic does not exist, its illusion must exist. Understood?
The seventh dynamic is the survival as a spiritual being. And what could be better than placing OT IX and OT X here?

There are two ghosts on the picture. Each one represents a non-existing OT level. Guess what! The cat will never be let out of the bag.


Eighth dynamic

The God dynamic. This one has only been defined rudimentary by the founder. So there is no issue with slowly undefining it. LRH’s words become less and less important. DM knows how to alter everything and everyone … especially everyone. You will never be the same again! The missing LRH astral body on the picture has been edited audited away.


Ninth dynamic

Aesthetics!!! This is the exclamation mark dynamic! Every Scientologist uses it frequently and without any discipline!!!!!!!


Tenth dynamic

Ethics? This is a pure LOL dynamic for Miscavige. There is no such as Ethics in the life of a lunatic. What did you think? LOL stands for the highest urge towards survival of pleasure.

Inalienable rights á la Scientology?


The cult of Scientology surely has a copyright on their creed. One might not believe that anybody would ever copyright any creed – except this minuscule cult, which funnily pretends to have millions of followers. We know that companies use copyrights. Well, somehow Scientology is a company, although carcinoma is a better word for it. You have to cut it out or you will die!

Let’s have a look at the “Greed of Scientology”. The cult PR masters publish on their web pages: “… it succinctly states what Scientologists believe …”
Haha, where is Xenu? No, this is definitely not what they believe.

The greed should start like this:

“We of the church believe in Xenu.
That all men are infested with Body Thetans.
That all men must go bankrupt and pay for their insane wishes to find salvation in a cult.
That propaganda is good.
That acceptable truths are not lies.
That you can only control people by lying to them.
That free speech is a pain in the ass.
That Scientology makes you lovely paranoid.”

But somehow the greed of Scientology uses different wordings. This is just a marginal nuance, you know?

That all men of whatever race, color or creed were created with equal rights…

Not too bad. I can buy that. These homophobic fanatics did not mention gay people yet.

That all men have inalienable rights to their own religious practices and their performance.

Ooops? In Scientology you are not allowed to believe in anything else. Jesus was just an implant, Mohammed a drug addict and Buddha a Hubbard incarnation. If you deviate from Hubbard’s beliefs, then you have “Counter Intentions”. You have to find your misunderstandings, restudy some texts, listen to lectures and do word clearing or false data stripping. They exactly know how to make you wrong. And if you cannot find any misunderstanding and still dare to ask for clarification, then you are declared Suppressive Person. You will be shunned and excommunicated right away, because you have become a Potential Trouble Source for the cult.

That all men have inalienable rights to their own lives.
That all men have inalienable rights to their sanity.
That all men have inalienable rights to their own defense.

First of all, let me highlight the word “INALIENABLE”. All your rights are highly alienable within the cult of Scientology. Statistics have to go up – obviously in favour of Miscavige’s gold vault– each week, from Thursday to Thursday. And if they point downwards for a while, you lose all your rights. Nobody cares about your previous contributions … 30 years top and overnight flop. You become a “Liability”. This is what you always wanted, right? You have to accept punishment and in case you decide to leave. Well, even after 30 years working for the cult and earning nearly nothing – you suddenly OWE the cult money. They call it freeloader debt. This is no typo! They do not give you some money and pay for your retirement plan. You owe money! We are not talking about some dollars. These are tens or hundreds of thousands! The longer you worked for them, the more you owe them, because you were receiving free education! Well, cross the “free” out.

That all men have inalienable rights to conceive, choose, assist or support their own organizations, churches and governments.

OMG! You don’t! The cult is fighting against the freezone, a group that believes in Hubbard, but not the cult. There is definitely no sign of any “rights to conceive, choose, assist or support their own organizations, churches”.

That all men have inalienable rights to think freely, to talk freely, to write freely their own opinions and to counter or utter or write upon the opinions of others.

LOL! ROFL! This is not only highly alienable. In fact, it does not exist. You don’t have any right to mention your opinions … unless they go hand in hand with Hubbard. Criticism is a sign of overts (bad deeds). And the one, who is critical, has committed overts against the survival of Scientology. Thus you are always wrong, whereas the cult is always right.

That all men have inalienable rights to the creation of their own kind.
That the souls of men have the rights of men.
That the study of the Mind and the healing of mentally caused ills should not be alienated from religion or condoned in nonreligious fields.
And that no agency less than God has the power to suspend or set aside these rights, overtly or covertly.

WTF! Scientology never defines “God”. So how can such be in the creed? This is pure PR for the IRS – no more!

That Man is basically good.
That he is seeking to survive.

Don’t study the PTS/SP course! It will make you paranoid. Suppressive Persons are everywhere. Scientology tells you that all is about what you have done and what the consequences are. Interestingly this is not applicable to the cult. Don’t dare to mention Hubbard’s words in this context. You can quickly get into serious trouble!
Scientology’s bad PR is the result of Suppressive Persons aka Psychiatrists. Once again: this is no joke!
And “That he is seeking to survive?” But not when you are below 2.0 on the tone scale according to Hubbard. And what about women?

That his survival depends upon himself and upon his fellows and his attainment of brotherhood with the universe.
To destroy his own kind.
To destroy the sanity of another.
To destroy or enslave another’s soul.
To destroy or reduce the survival of one’s companions or one’s group.

Hypocrites! Scientology does nothing else than to enslave and destroy souls. Hubbard wanted to be the worst beast in history. Simply study his biography. This is well-known. A good read is “Bare-Faced Messiah” by Russell Miller.

That the spirit can be saved.
And that the spirit alone may save or heal the body.

What can I say? Not a single cure!

Theory and practice are definitely not the same for the cult of greedy hypocrites. Fire all Scientologists in your company. Sooner or later they will spot the Suppressive Persons there. And you will be one of them! Expect attacks in the name of the “most ethical beings on Earth”. Scientologists are generally paranoid.